You may not yet know me, but I know you. Our paths have travelled far from one another but I remember who you are.
I know the fear you hold inside of yourself, the fear that you’re not enough, that you’ll never be enough, that you’re unlovable, that you do not belong.
You feel uncomfortable in your skin; your mind takes over you and the thoughts are unrelenting. They put you down, they make you feel worthless, they are way harsher than any other person could be to you.
You feel trapped and wish there was a way out, wish that you could be someone else. You wish that you could be someone who is worthy of love.
Sure, you have friends and sometimes family tell you how wonderful you are. They occasionally lift you up and you get glimpses of who they think you are and you feel like a fraud. If they knew who you truly were they wouldn’t say what they do; they’d realise the truth and abandon you, and you’d think that you deserved it.
You do what you can to stop the pain. You squeeze yourself to fit in and be whoever they want you to be.
You drink or eat, diet or scroll, and you don’t do the things you’d really like to do in fear that you’ll be labelled as a bitch, over-confident or you won’t be liked. It’s a constant cycle and the armour that you carry is heavy, exhausting, and overwhelming.
Don’t you wish you could just put it down and be yourself without having to pretend?
Somewhere deep down inside of you there’s a different voice; it’s quiet, almost silent, but not quite. It tells you of your potential, of the person you could be or might be if you were brave enough. But you push that voice aside, the world swallows you into who you “should” be, and the pain becomes a part of your existence.
You know that every time you do something “big”, something worth noting, something where you truly shine, someone else shrinks in your light. Your bigness makes others uncomfortable and you’re not willing to face the devastation of rejection. So you stay small, you convince yourself that you’ll be okay with never reaching that potential, plus who are you to do great things? Nobody.
It sometimes feels like you are two different people. You feel completely inadequate, unworthy, and unlovable, yet you sense this bigness about you; you sense that you might really be special. Maybe.
As much as you would love to be special, be a star and get noticed, you are more terrified of standing out. You have been taught that standing out means that you’re the number one target to be ripped down and ejected from the group. So you weigh the risk and decide that fitting in and having a place to call home is better than having to face it on your own. You say to yourself, “I’m not special anyway,” and you stay safe with your friends who are also afraid to stand out.
You know how different you really are, and you work tirelessly to keep up the charade that you’re the same as everyone else. You conform to what the group wants and believes; you don’t voice your own opinion and you fall in line with what the world expects of you.
But you are hurting. I see your pain when others do not.
I see the way you hide yourself through those baggy clothes, through your big personality, through over-giving, through those scars on your wrists and the way in which you obsess about your weight – in whatever way you hide, I see you.
You are always trying to be someone that you’re not. Smaller, funnier, prettier, sexier, more fuckable so that people will value you and you will feel worthy. You contort who you are into such a small space, and you cannot breathe.
You blame this entirely on yourself, of course. “If I was only good enough, I wouldn’t need to do this.”
You let them treat you like crap and you laugh it off. You go out of your way to bully yourself outwardly so that you can get a head start on the real bullies – they can’t get to you if you get to yourself first, right?
But it’s wearing you down. Even if you’ve been working hard on yourself and trying to love yourself more lately, the constant internal chatter of self-destruction is too much. It’s awesome to know that you need to love yourself, but knowing HOW is a whole other story.
I wish I could free you from this life of self-hatred, and my work is my gift to you. This gift is in hope that you may see yourself in me, just as I see myself in you. I want you to know that you are not alone, that you’re not the only one who feels this way, and that there IS indeed a
way out.
You do not need to suffer anymore, my dear reader. You do not have to be or do anything more than you are right now in this moment to feel like you are enough. You do not have to have any more than you have right now to feel like you are enough.
YOU ARE ALREADY ENOUGH.
I know that you don’t yet believe me. Why would you? The whole world has told you that you’re a piece of shit – maybe not directly (if you’re lucky), but through the lens of the world that tells you that you always need to be something different; you will always feel like who, what, and where you currently are is not enough.
I’m here to offer you a different story, a different truth than what you have been taught. A story that is rooted in your worthiness with no prior requirement: no achievement to be made or box to tick before you know you are worthy.
Let my story of self-harm, self-hate, eating disorders, and the long journey to self-love show you that it’s possible. Not just for me, but for you too.
I’m no different to you; I’ve struggled in the same ways and know what it’s like to be terrified of being myself in fear of being unloved.
You matter. Your voice matters. You are important, valuable, worthy, lovable and perfect – just as you are.
Let me show you how.
The truest version of who you are awaits you. Free from your self-judgements, the mindless chatter in your brain, your fears of inadequacy, and your darkness. Through all of these things, the truth of who you really are lies awake, waiting in gracious patience for you to remember. You don’t have to hide behind your smile anymore. You no longer need to be polite or comply; you no longer have to remain quiet when you would really like to speak up.
This course is filled with practical how-tos in overcoming your inner negativity, dealing with people who seem to go out of their way to bring you down, and connecting with your inner desires. It has ancient, long-ago, forgotten wisdom, potent transmissions to awaken your soul, and heart-moving truths that act as reminders of your pain, your path, and what is possible with self-love.
There will be no denial here of your pain. This is not a matter of fake-it till- you-make-it. This course will absolutely inspire and motivate you, but it’s not all that I want you to receive from this. If all I leave you with after you complete this course is a fleeting warm, fuzzy feeling that fades as soon as you have picked up the next self-help book or returned to your daily grind, then, to me, I will have missed a great opportunity to serve you.
If you let it, this course will change your life.
It will awaken your magnificence and guide you through the most common obstacles you will face along your journey. Fair warning though: it will not always be easy or comfortable or make you feel gooey and squishy and like everything is amazing.
I have read those books and I’ve been to those courses. I feel heightened and powerful and like I can achieve anything for a little while; I go about telling everyone how amazing my new life is going to be and begin to preach to anyone who is in my vicinity about how they need to pick up what I have done and do it too.
It’s always like I am drunk, high on the energy of the space so delicately and deliberately constructed in order to create change.
Don’t get me wrong, I LOVE, LOVE, LOVE all of the personal, professional, and spiritual development I have done over the decades; each of these experiences has taught me valuable lessons and has transformed me in ways that I could never have imagined.
There is no one answer for any of us, there is no one guru, no one guide, no one way in which the peace you seek can be found. Everything you study, read, and immerse yourself in is worthwhile. Some of the things I have done have left me feeling empty and inadequate after a while. Their sales and marketing strategies always aligned with me just needing a little more before I can take off and soar so that they may sell me into the next program or the next level.
My wish for this course is to create lasting change to your soul, to awaken and liven the parts of you that you have never had the courage to explore, let alone show to the world. My intention for you, my dear sister, is that you will be broken open and explode from your false sense of self so that you may truly live as the light that you are.
This is an ongoing process and I know this course will be just one step in your ultimate rise to your truth.
I do not hold all the answers, but I know that you do – for you. Deep within your being is an infinite source of wisdom that you have the capability to tap into that will help you to answer all of the questions that you hold, that keep you up at night, that you so desperately seek to discover.
I hope to have you join the ride.....
All my love, Luna xoxo
