Were you raised in an environment where the truth wasn't often told or talked about?
Me too and that's why I've been on and continue to be on a journey with trust and truth.
For a lot of us, it’s not easy to trust. It can feel scary to lean into something we can’t see or something we can’t predict or something we don’t know for sure. What if we could embrace this? What if we could embrace the mystery and the unknown, little by little? What if we could hold the tension of opposites - the fear of not knowing and the trust that there is a guiding force gently holding us in the mystery?
I’m always in process with trust, meaning my trust in the universe. This trust feels natural and authentic when I’m connected to source energy. My connection to source energy comes in many forms and allows me to believe:
I matter
I’m here for a reason and have a purpose.
I’m part of an intricate web of life.
I’m supported - financially, emotionally, physically, spiritually.
This isn’t just some random, weird planet that I landed on accidentally.
I can create the life I want.
I don’t have to be miserable and cynical.
I can move through hard things and come out on the other side with more wisdom, peace, and grace.
And more … these are top of mind as I write this anyway.
My relationship with trust has evolved over time and, thankfully, has grown into something that feels genuine ~ I feel it in my body more and more. But it didn't start that way. I grew up feeling anxious and depressed, and with an understanding that life is a struggle. I believed in the thinking that dominant culture gives us ~ there isn’t enough for everyone, your body is going to fail, getting old is hard and you need a lot of money to do it, life is meant for school, work, a family, and then death. You aren’t unique or special, just get through it.
Then I had an experience in 2002 that changed me forever. I chose to end a profoundly significant relationship and it was one of the hardest decisions I’ve ever had to make. I experienced some of the most intense grief I’ve ever felt; I felt alone, sad, misunderstood, scared, deeply depressed, and anxious. I had a hard time getting out of bed. If I’m completely honest, I didn’t want to be here anymore. I was struggling every day.
I was incredibly disconnected from myself, from the people who loved me, from the universe and source energy. Part of me believed that I didn’t deserve to be happy and that I never would be again. I was completely and totally lost.
It took a long time for me to connect to myself again. The event in 2002 was the beginning of my spiritual awakening. It was my first step - of many which continues today - toward trust. The most significant teacher in my process is nature. Nature shook me awake and led me to the beginning of my journey.
Back then, I moved to Colorado and I joined a trail crew. I spent a month living and working outside. My soul was reawakened by sleeping under the stars, living in a tent, waking up on freezing mornings in the mountains, and wishing I was in a warm bed. It was exactly what I needed; working so hard that my body would meld into a sleeping bag with ease and gratitude. I woke up in a new way to the healing power of the Earth.
From there I would walk and hug trees. I would take my journal to the river and write until my hand hurt. I would sit on the dirt and feel myself connected to the very planet giving me life. I would climb a mountain and feel my heartbeat so hard in my body that I couldn’t think about anything else. It made me breathe. It made me present. It made me feel alive and connected to something much bigger than myself.
It's my intention to help you begin - or continue to move
toward healing, and a more authentically connected life.
Then I became a “non-traditional” student - because of my age - and I put myself through college. I connected with my love of learning and with a community of people thirsty for knowledge. I became more of me. I learned how to be alone and how to live alone. I learned that I didn’t need a man to validate me or make me worth it. I didn’t need anyone to pay half of the rent - I could do it on my own. This was a major turning point for me.
Then, I discovered Pilates. I didn’t fall in love with it right away, it took some coaxing (and a significant investment of money that I didn’t want to lose) but I eventually discovered the physical, spiritual, and emotional benefits of the practice. It became a form of therapy because I was inhabiting my body and moving through stuck places. I was moving emotional and physical pain with breath and intentional movement. It connected me to my core - my physical and spiritual core. I took an opportunity to learn how to teach it to deepen into my own practice, only to discover that teaching is one of my passions.
Mindfulness was a natural progression from there. One of the things mindfulness will teach us is this: we create suffering when trying to hold onto pleasant feelings and when we try to push away unpleasant feelings. I learned to meditate and became able to observe my thoughts and realized that I am not my thoughts. I began to see that I have control over my thoughts and I can engage or dismiss them. I could witness what thoughts would create anxiety or sadness for me. I learned that I can change my mindset.
My relationship with the Akashic Records might be the most significant contributor to my ability to trust. I have a place to go for comfort, guidance, and for peace of mind. I have a place to go to be seen, heard, and loved for all of me. I have a place to go to learn about my relationships, my decisions, how I operate, what my soul wants … I have a place to go where there is more than just this life and I can see that there is great purpose to my life, to your life, to all of life. There is a plan. My practice of going into the Records has helped me feel connected to myself, the unseen realms, the truth of existence, my belief in being supported, my belief in the larger plan, and the bigger picture.
Because of my journey so far, I’ve come to learn that trust is essential for feeling connected and feeling that there is a purpose to life on Earth as a human. I’m not 100% trusting 100% of the time but I have a foundation and I’d love to help you find your foundation of trust. Having more trust leads to more inner peace, self-love, compassion, and to a more graceful way of being.
My mission is to help you learn to trust & accept yourself while activating your purpose, all while entering new dimensions of healing.
Akashic
Record Reading
What if you could access your innate wisdom through your soul’s record,
and ask for guidance around
anything in your life?
YOUR AKASHIC
RECORD HOLDS
THE WISDOM
OF YOUR SOUL!
Your record contains every
life you have lived, and is accessed through your
Masters, Teachers
and Loved Ones (MTLOs).
Coaching
Are you ready to trust yourself?
I'll help you to trust and believe that you are connected, clear, and directed, even on the days that it doesn’t feel that way.
To feel connected to the power of the universe means feeling connected to your purpose.
Whether it’s self-trust or a deeper connection to your spirituality, I’ll help you implement ways to connect and trust more every day.
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